Blog-O-Matic 3000

Wonderful, right? You think I'd keep a journal better than this, but alas I don't. I've never been good at this. So, the pictures are all gone...figured I'm ready to give the world a professional run.

 

Heaven Help Them All

Ciao

Rae

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Posted at: 05:05 PM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

That iconic line is from Fight Club, a favorite book of mine, but it also works wonders in my sex life. I've been a bit more masochistic lately, and so I'm thinking at working that line into my routine. As for routine...things lately are anything but. I've had a romantic deviation from my Master, due to the fact that we disagreed on something that really means a lot to me, and it's left me doing something I'd never imagined I'd get to do... Earlier in this blog (as if you'd read anything before this post) I'd mentioned being into someone I could never have...well, scratch that never bitches. I've got him, and trust me...he's a fucking SEX GOD. His fingers strong, his hips are STRONGER, and my oh my...musicians who play wind instruments do know how to control their tongue, if I say so myself...which I do. So, the naughty pictures still up on here, and I've not received notice from the internet decency board to remove them, so up they shall stay. May all of you lovely Fat Admirers adore them...as I do. Ciao Rae

Tags: fat admirers, sex, sex god

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Posted at: 01:00 AM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

...but I'm sure the most frequent one I'll hear is "Wow", either in disgust or amazement.

I've decided to give my photographs a dry run here on my cute, secret, tiny free site.  I'm considering submitting some photographs to a few BBW Pin-Up sites to see who bites, if any at all, and so to try my confidence I'm posting here.  So far, the reaction I've gotten from a close friend was amazing, making me feel like I'm a beauty of celebrity levels. 

Thank you, by the way...you always make me feel like that though >.<

 So, if you see the photographs, and happen to be a reader of my journal/blog, feel free to leave me a comment about the pictures, so I know where I'm standing with my friends in the world of the internets.

Also, if you read this blog, you're sure to have seen that I have a love for Matthew Gray Gubler...if any of you people know him, do direct him to my page. Love at first sight can't happen until he SEES ME >.<

 

Ciao

Rae

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Posted at: 03:47 PM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

I'm probably a little screwed. I've been working on my paper for my Human Development class about The Exceptional Child for a little over two weeks now, and I'm still stumped. It's crazy, it's due tomorrow, and I have no idea what I'm going to do about this. It's about 25 percent of my grade, and I'm doing well so far, with nearly perfect marks on all of my exams and such, but I'm pretty scared of this term paper. I had to take a break to blog it out because I'd go mad if I didn't do SOMETHING besides research ADHD and it's affects on the human mind.

 

If anyone religious reading this could pray for my success, that would totally rock. 

 

Ciao

Rae

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Posted at: 08:58 PM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

...the monthly curse set in the DAY before the month started.

...I fell on my knee 10 minutes before I had to go to work.

...I'm a little in love with someone I will likely NEVER have (physically or emotionally) , and fuck, it's a little lame, you know?

...I've got a sinus infection, and a middle ear infection which continues to make me hard of hearing in my right ear from time to time.

...and to top it all off? I'm working at seven thrity tomorrow morning...erm, this morning.

 

FML,

Rae

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Posted at: 01:46 AM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

I miss sleeping, and I'm out of ideas. So far, I've tried the following

• Pills: Benadryl, Unisom, Nyquil,  health store Melatonin, any painkiller with the word 'P.M.' in it's title, and even a perscription, Restoril.
• Anti-Distraction Method: No electronics on, no lights of ANY KIND visible (besides my clock) and laying down without even being tired in order to convice the body to produce melatonin, our sleep chemical. 
• Tasty Beverages: I've done chamomille, herbal teas of all types, warm milk, and even Kahlua-spiked warm milk, though it made me more of a whore than sleepy truth be told.
• Other Methods Suggested: Reading a book before bed, classical music before bed, and God help me, crying before sleep to relieve emotional tension that could be causing restlessness...

So, I'm pretty much managing my life on an average of 5 hours or so of sleep each evening, and I don't know how I do it, because I've been exhausted pretty much all the time, only I don't sleep. I've tried to take fucking naps,and I just can't. I've an inability to sleep while the sun is out, worried that I'll miss something amazing, like Matthew Gray Gubler magically appearing at my door to confess his dark, undying love for yours truly (though I'd be sure I was sleeping if that happened).

So I sit here, at 2:30 or so in the morning, typing on my netbook perched on a blanket and my legs listening to Fall Out Boy acoustic on my ipod, praying that I'd finally get tired. So far, nada. I'm thinking that I'll be a superhero named 'Insomnica', with the ablitiy to stay up longer than the supervillans in an amazing plot to disarm them while they gently rest like normal fucking people. The world will celebrnate my awesomeness by declaring a multi-national naptime in which I won't participate, because I'll be UNABLE TO FUCKING SLEEP....but I'll know somewhere,The Gube will be sleeping >.<

Ciao

Rae

Tags: insomnia, matthew gray gubler, napping

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Posted at: 02:31 AM | 0 Comments | Add Comment | Permalink

I've decided that my webpage needed a total overhaul. It was set up like a damn High Schooler would have, and I am not that girl anymore.  So much has happened since that time, and it's amazing to think that this page has been in existance 347 weeks....and I think I've had maybe 12 page views, at least 6 of which was myself. So, I've decided to do what every 20-something in the 90's did...

I'm blogging, bitches, and I'm hoping that my friends actually bother reading this thing...and still like me after all that goes down.

As of this posting, I'm a 25 year old woman who is about to start life online as more than just a casual 'I have a Facebook, how cool am I?' net user.

 

Until then, my friends, I say Ciao

Heather Rae

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